INDIFFERENT? I LIE!

I wish you had burnt my face,

With sulphuric acid in haste,

I wish you had locked me in,

With tigers in a cage,

I wish you had released on me,

Flesh eating bacteria in waves,

How I wish you had taken my flesh

And left my heart untouched.

Every time you come near me,

I can’t help but cry, and bleed,

Cry and bleed,

I can’t help but moan and mope,

I can’t help but writh in pain,

I feel like you are pummeling me,

Bludgeoning me with a huge club,

From the inside all the way out,

I can’t help but try and run.

But you have tied me with your chains,

You have held me with your gaze,

You have forced me into a daze,

Its all now a haze,

My heart still beats for you,

My heart still longs for you,

My heart weeps for you,

But you don’t want it,

You never seem interested,

So you throw it in a bin,

Like last nights leftovers.

I wish I had not loved you,

I wish your scent had not enchanted me,

I wish your voice hadn’t woven its web,

Skillfully round my neck and my feet,

And made want you more,

More than any other.

I wish that I hadn’t wished also,

I wish I hadn’t sought,

I wish I could melt the past,

And remake it, rework it,

Redo it into something else.

But most of all, I wish it didn’t hurt so bad.